Good Friends..
Tuesday, August 25, 2009, 6:55 AM
Having a few really good friends is much better than having many friends who are not trust able, reliable, or caring. Everyone needs a friend. A friend that will be there for you at your ups and downs. Someone who would do anything to make you the happiest person on the face of this earth.

As i was watching "Full House" with my sis ( i don't know why i do that), Danny Tanner's best friend Joey, the comedian, it reminded me of Joey Lee. He was more than a friend he was like an older brother who I can look to for comfort. Not forgetting Quincy. The Lee brothers made an impact in my life. When i gave up in believing in friends and trusted more in my family, I met Joey and Quincy. The memories we all had together with the rest ( Ann, Poh Hian, Khiing, Ghuan, Kym (a new addition) and everyone else). All the memories are great and I hope i never forget them. I hope that we can still be great friends even after the 2 years of separation. I hope things won't change between us.

Friends are great companions. You will never regret in making best friends. Look at Khiing and Poh Hian, They were even able to write about their great adventures together and cherish the moments. Everyone deserves a friend no one deserves to be alone. Just because someone may be different from us that doesn't mean that we will never enjoy each others company. Everyone can be a good friend. Never leave someone as an outcast. Make a person happier by just being their friend just like how the Lee brothers has done to me. Not forgetting my other friends. Gabriel Chan and Mun Hong, both of you kinda influenced me to be a better person. Not that i have forgotten the others just that there are too much to write.



Day Out to Shogun...
Monday, August 24, 2009, 3:49 AM
The usual morning noise began to enter my room... i realized that it was already 9 as that is the time when my dads car engine would rumble... since it was a holiday, i ignored the sound and went back to my sleep with cindy... then when i was tired of sleeping...i got out of bed and checked my phone... to my surprise, it was already 11.45... i ahve never gotten up that late before... so i quickly went to bathe as i was not fully clothed and my policy to change to fresh clothes is to bathe first... as i bathe, there was a loud knock on my door... Who is that??? If you know i am bathing why did you have to knock the door??? it turned out to be my mom with great news... she says that we are going to shogun... woo hoo... when i went down she told me another good news relating to her floral arrangement business... so i thought to myself.. maybe that is why she thought of treating me and my sis to lunch.. haha ( not that she doesn't do it .. she does but lately it became rare..) hmm as we got there the variety of food were laid all over the place... they all look so good that i felt that i was really full after the first round... though all i ate was shashimi and oysters... yum yum... anyway the food were all good then when i spotted the fried section, i saw tempura... and i thought how nice it would be if poh hian could be here to taste tempura... something she hasnt tried... and i said to myself that once i earned my money from shares and she is back at malaysia.. i would take her out for tempura... haha hmm... i ate so little yet i was so full.. i lost the abillity to fill up my stomach to the fullest capacity... but anyway it was a great day... and i bet i reached my cost...

I cried.. big boy turns out to be young at heart
, 2:44 AM
Some may quote the statement "crying maketh a man". Some maybe even live by it.. who created it?? ME.. why?? cause I thought that it was true and i thought that i could live by it... but I couldn't... I guess i am not the man i thought i am or could be... the shame packaged with the tears was a heavy baggage on my eyes...but when i was walking back up to the centre after waving poh hian good bye and receiveing a message from my bro that he would be late, i started to feel my heart trembling... i quickly ran into the lift pressed number 3 and hoped that it would reach quickly cause tears began to roll down my face and khiing was beside me... i couldn't bear to look at khiing's face after seeing me cry.. as we reached the 3rd floor, i quickly pressed the code and went in... i chucked my bag and photos that the lee brothers gave aside and ran to the closet... i saw the mattresses all scatered around but since i had to let my tears out quickly, i just throw myself on the mattresses without locking the door or pulling socks off... and there i laid crying till it was dark... khiing came in when i was kinda hoping that he didnt but he still did and it kinda comforted me still.. so i guess it wasnt such a bad thing after all... but this only means that someone realized i cried..


when everything was settled and i was able to joke around... and speak to ppl... i began to feel great all over again... i thought all my tears have gone away and i am strong to go on with life again... the next day, sunday, after breakfast, everyone was just lazing around at home waiting for the right time to leave the home to head to church.... i was jsut sitting on the chair lazily and just waiting.. everyone was silent... i closed my eyes for a moment... and my heart began to pulpitate in a weird manner.... something i couldnt understand... then as i closed my eyes tighter, tears a drop of tear rolled down my eye.. i was confused and didnt know what to do, everyone else was just near by... i couldnt bear the questions that my family members would ask when i started crying... i quickly ran up to my room stealthtily without even wiping of my tears... i jumped to my bed and started hugging cindy.... i didnt want to let go... and there i laid on my bed crying ... little noises started coming out of my mouth... i tried my best to close my mouth so that no one may hear me... i jsut laid there and cry for at least 5-10 minutes... no one told me that we are leaving for church already until i heard the engine of my dads car... i quickly went to the bathroom to wash my face and wipe my tears off so that no one would suspect anything...

In the car everything was fine... but my heart still trembled a little... i was kinda stoning and the whole car was so silent no one said anything... until my bro asked me to listen to the song better days from goo goo dolls and asked me to learn up the song... as i heard the music... my heart began to beat even harder... and to make things worse, my bro put his hands on my shoulders for no reason... then tears began to fall... i was so clueless to why and what i should do... i quickly passed the earphones back and turned my head to the window hoping that no one would be able to see my face... then tears began to fall... i didnt want to wipe it cause i thought if i did then it would look more obvious... so i just stared out the window... then when there were just too much tears... i took my hand and covered my eye like how a bird watcher does when it is a bright day...
through out the journey i was trying to stop the tears from falling but i couldnt... i tlited my head back hoping that the tears would contain in my eyes... but then again it couldnt... however as we reacehd the church it finally stopped... i quickly wiped the tears off when no one is looking and head towards the sanctuary... then i realized that i left my phone in the car and was expecting poh hian to reply my message... so i asked my dad for the key and went to take my phone.. and it was before service started... so everything was fine and ok.. until the musicians went up the stage... and started worshiping God.. i did the same and sang songs of worhip and praise... but some of the songs really touched my heart and again i was there standing up crying like a big baby... but in a way it was not as bad as everyone else were also worshiping God and wouldnt turn their eyes to me... i wiped out my tears and tried to sing though it was hard... as my voice couldn't come out... but it was a good thing that after the praise and worship session my tears finally stopped flowing...

it was the craziest day... after church i went to kl to have lunch... and after that me and my family walked to pavilion.. there i reminisced about the time when poh hian was still around... the day before she had to go back to singapore... the unforgetable day... the day that changed most things.... hmm well everything turned out ok finally.. managed to get through the day... and managed to keep contact with poh hian all the way till she reached singapore... and when i got back again i had the chance to communicate with her on msn... so it was a cool day after all

old times..
Thursday, August 13, 2009, 8:06 AM