WHy do we humans have mood swings... We can try so hard to be happy but sometimes you just can't.. Especially when we want something so bad and we can't get it.. Not just materials but everything else... someday i hope all my hopes and wishes will come true..
To all those who are sitting for their IGCSE exam currently.. ALL THE BEST.. how i wish i could be there finishing up the whole examination as planned achieving the many A's i wished for and expected... Getting really worried now.. What do I do??? What is in my future?? Help me oh God.. I am afraid now.. so much to do.. so little time... Holidays are coming but occupied myself with missions...
As we live our lives, we have this tendency to forget how fragile life is. Life is short and unpredictable. Who knows maybe tomorrow you may be gone without any warning. We have to treasure and live everyday like it was our last.
Whenever we have a problem or are struggling with life, never forget that we have God on our side. Just like when we have problems we will turn to our parents and friends and they find ways to get out of the problem. Likewise, we should turn to God for help no matter how ridiculous it may sound. At times God will not answer our prayers but He will give us something even better and sometimes before we reflect back on what the Lord has done for us, we judge him and get mad when what he has done is not what we wanted but was actually better. When we pray, apart from requesting, we should take sometime to reflect back on the things the Lord has done for you. Personally, God has bless me in numerous ways that I don't realize until one day it just dawn on me.
My dog, Mika, was a home, play dog. He has lost all his doggy instincts that is an essential part of a dog. All he could do was eat, walk and sleep. I was starting to wonder why we even have a dog that doesn't act like a dog. Anyway I guess he is just like a furry teddy bear that moves.

A few months back, I took Mika out for a midnight walk around the skirtings of our gated community home. I never liked taking him out for walks at the middle of night since i was always afraid of what happens at night. However, since no one took him out and he looked desperate, I took him out because I felt pity. As we were both walking out in the night with dim lamp posts gleaming at certain areas, I began reminiscing about the good old days and questioning my foolish actions. All of a sudden, my heart began to pulpitate. I started having this fear in my heart.

As it was getting really late and i feared the worst, I took larger paces. I could barely see the ground. As i walked faster and faster, I kicked an object that seemed like a piece of cement that chipped off the floor. The object leaped and moved about. At that moment I began to freak out but as I calmed down, i realised that it was only a toad that was staying still and resting till i hit it.

Though I wanted to rush home, Mika still had to pee. When we had to stop, I began to fluster and kept pulling his leash hoping that he would not take too long. Suddenly, during one of our stops, up above my our heads, I saw this pale white light that moved really quickly. It was like a mist. I kept tilting my head up and down hoping that it goes away but it was there moving and it was not leaving. When Mika was done, I couldn't take it any longer, I dashed home while pulling him by the leash. After that never again did I see that white light.

Today,I walked at the park by myself. I was not alone though it was already 9.30 p.m. There were a few couples walking pass me. Again as I walk, I began thinking of really sweet and nice thoughts. Then suddenly I felt that fear in my heart again. I felt like someone was trailing behind me as though it was about to harm me. When i looked around me, I couldn't see anyone. Even the couples that were strolling at the park were missing. I was so afraid but I mustered my guts and continued with my exercise and ignored that feeling that something or someone was following me. I kept praying throughout the exercise session hoping that nothing would happen to me.

All of a sudden, I saw that white light again. It was moving around the roof of the houses and this time it looked smaller than before. I told myself that I was not gonna allow myself to be afraid anymore so i kept looking for that light and trace it to the source of that light but it was moving really fast. I began to suspect that it could be the torch lights of the security guards but then again, it didnt look like flash lights and why would they be shinning it up like little children. Besides it was not prjected to the roof or anything like that. It was just a white light that looked like a fast moving cloud. The myestery continues and I hope some day I may find out what that was. Till then I am going to be brave and prayerful.