Beautiful song that I just thought off.. makes me wanna cry
Wow no regrets... Had a really great day today. At start I had to attend the Sarawak Missions Trip meeting but i pleaded to be exempted from the meeting. My kind leader gave me permission to go and I was glad.

The day began with some fellowship and Video clips of photos. Then it went on to a moment of sermon. Then came the time everyone was waiting for, performances. To be honest, the cheras school was really great. I guess they really took the effort and time to rehearse it that they were so prepared. When the KK team went up, i was rather shock as i never knew that they are capable of performing so well. As everything end, teacher Ben treated us to Yong Tau Fu and guess what, the owner was my former neighbour.

After that we went to summit as midvalley was really jam. Planned to watch 2012 but tickets were almost impossible to get as our group was to big. There were 10 of and so it was hard to get tickets for all of us at the same hall. Finally we decided to split up. 6 watch 2012 and 4 watch ninja. However, most of us decided not to watch as it will end late and we were all exhausted after the day. So our mission was to sell all those tickets out. Aaron was so confident to sell it a higher price but later on i guess he realised it is not right and so we sold it out at cost price. We had two couples sit and another two odd sits. The couples sitting were easily sold but the odd sits was tough but finally T. Mag met a nice malay man that bought the ticket from us. Phew what a day.
No offence but school can be quite heart-breaking nowadays. One mistake made things quite difficult. If only i hadn't make that mistake. I guess in life we tend to make mistakes. However, some mistakes can be fixed but it doesn't change certain things. I am starting to miss the old days before the complications began. Sorry to those of you who are new. I like you guys but i just hope that i will forget those complicated days but it is hard as there are still remaining things that disrupts my emotions.

I no longer have anger but the memories of the past comes back to haunt me and I feel really disturbed at times. Currently my goal is to finish up my exam and do well and then start a whole new life. This school was great and is great but there are things that i dont want to be part of my life and its hard to remove. Of all places i never thought that homeschooling will be the starting point of complication. Who knew?

I really regret starting something that I say I will never do.To all those out there who are planning or wishing to start a relationship, don't start it too young and my reasons are:

1) you are young and barely have the chance to spend time with each other. Even if you are free, you can't drive nor do you have money

2) you might not be mature enough to make decisions. In fact, you may make a wrong decision that may ruin your life.

3) if you are serious about the relationship, it will be too long to date and it is hard and it may even cause you to reconsider if you may marry the person. I think that marriage is sometimes more of a commitment. ( this may be wrong i am not sure)

4) life at this stage may be unstable. You may be migrating to other countries and far distance relationship is not too good. You may also shift from school to school and therefore restrict the both of you from seeing each other.

5)Takes most of your time away from your family which i think is not a good idea at this age, a strong bond with the family is very important so in the future it may be much easier. Btw getting close to your family is a teamwork. You can't expect a good relationship if only one party is trying.

6)Some partners are inconsiderate as they are still immature. They may be demanding.

7)When you know the relationship would no longer work, it is hard to say it is over as one party will surely be hurt.

8) If you are dating someone from the same school, all you wish for is to move out from school as soon as possible to forget those memories and start a whole new life. Studying may be difficult.

9) most of the time relationships at this age does not work and most feelings are falsely created by friends and some are based on peer pressure.

10) at this age we may not be mature enough to handle disputes and arguments. Surely it has to start somewhere but hopefully it will be at the time when you are more mature and you are more careful with the things you say.

There are plenty more reasons why and well i am not stopping you but i am discouraging you. When you come upon a situation as this, think twice. Dont rush into things. You may regret but i have to agree that the experience gained is really great but be careful.

When i was young i have always set my mind and told myself firmly about the things that i will never do but i still make the mistakes. I go against my own principles and i feel like i betrayed myself.

p.s. whenever things dont work out. dont blame anyone. its no ones fault. just a mistake.

As we were attending our regular english lessons, our dear teacher brought up the topic of looking after someone. He questioned appointed a few to present a short speech of how they have helped look after family members. Some spoke of the times they looked after a child, some about their aged grandparents and some about their parents with illnesses.

The experiences shared by each individual were very intriguing and as an inquisitive person, i asked and asked all sorts of questions. All their stories were different but one thing remained unchanged. They all did it as a favour. Perhaps one or two did it as a sign of love and care but others just did what they had to. They were tied up with the responsibility and had nowhere to run away from it.

However, I believe that there is something in it for you as you help out. When my grandma use to live with my family, she made me do lots of things which I thought was unreasonable. There was a time when her radio broke down and she waked me up from my afternoon sleep to wake my brother up to fix it. Trying to be obedient, i went up and called my brother. He was feeling tired too and refused to get up to help her. I was stranded in between two people and I felt like I had to satisfy both parties but I was feeling agitated and i went to my grandma and tried to repair the radio but she thought that I didnt call my brother up and she asked me to go. I wasn't fluent with my Hokkien so i had difficulty telling her that he was tired and I was so frustrated and didnt know what to do. Picture the feeling I was having not able to help people as they dont want it from you. Anyway I could not recall what happened in the end but whenever i complained to my dad about it, he will tell me one thing ," its a blessing to be able to help someone". When he told me that I thought it was just a statement to make me feel better but as I matured, i realized some truth in it. It really is a blessing to be able to help.
A simple lesson that I learned from this little experience is how to remain clam when in situations such as this.

In every event, there is something to learn. Instead of wasting your time thinking about how horrible a person is, or how worked you are due to that problem, try recalling what you can learn and what you can do to prevent such situations.

Apart from all that people tend to be appreciative towards the things you do for them and they will remember you better. Some day when they are in heaven the will give a good record of you ( not that God doesnt know). Though there are some who may forget and dont see the things you do for them but it is not important what matters most is that God has seen what you have done and is proud of you for that.

Every opportunity you have to help someone, no matter how trying the problem may be, we should put the effort to try and help out and with some love to add some spice to the good deed. Both parties will benefit from a situation such as this.

Peace and Love