School
Friday, November 13, 2009, 6:23 AM
No offence but school can be quite heart-breaking nowadays. One mistake made things quite difficult. If only i hadn't make that mistake. I guess in life we tend to make mistakes. However, some mistakes can be fixed but it doesn't change certain things. I am starting to miss the old days before the complications began. Sorry to those of you who are new. I like you guys but i just hope that i will forget those complicated days but it is hard as there are still remaining things that disrupts my emotions.

I no longer have anger but the memories of the past comes back to haunt me and I feel really disturbed at times. Currently my goal is to finish up my exam and do well and then start a whole new life. This school was great and is great but there are things that i dont want to be part of my life and its hard to remove. Of all places i never thought that homeschooling will be the starting point of complication. Who knew?

I really regret starting something that I say I will never do.To all those out there who are planning or wishing to start a relationship, don't start it too young and my reasons are:

1) you are young and barely have the chance to spend time with each other. Even if you are free, you can't drive nor do you have money

2) you might not be mature enough to make decisions. In fact, you may make a wrong decision that may ruin your life.

3) if you are serious about the relationship, it will be too long to date and it is hard and it may even cause you to reconsider if you may marry the person. I think that marriage is sometimes more of a commitment. ( this may be wrong i am not sure)

4) life at this stage may be unstable. You may be migrating to other countries and far distance relationship is not too good. You may also shift from school to school and therefore restrict the both of you from seeing each other.

5)Takes most of your time away from your family which i think is not a good idea at this age, a strong bond with the family is very important so in the future it may be much easier. Btw getting close to your family is a teamwork. You can't expect a good relationship if only one party is trying.

6)Some partners are inconsiderate as they are still immature. They may be demanding.

7)When you know the relationship would no longer work, it is hard to say it is over as one party will surely be hurt.

8) If you are dating someone from the same school, all you wish for is to move out from school as soon as possible to forget those memories and start a whole new life. Studying may be difficult.

9) most of the time relationships at this age does not work and most feelings are falsely created by friends and some are based on peer pressure.

10) at this age we may not be mature enough to handle disputes and arguments. Surely it has to start somewhere but hopefully it will be at the time when you are more mature and you are more careful with the things you say.

There are plenty more reasons why and well i am not stopping you but i am discouraging you. When you come upon a situation as this, think twice. Dont rush into things. You may regret but i have to agree that the experience gained is really great but be careful.

When i was young i have always set my mind and told myself firmly about the things that i will never do but i still make the mistakes. I go against my own principles and i feel like i betrayed myself.

p.s. whenever things dont work out. dont blame anyone. its no ones fault. just a mistake.